Something a Little Different

So I decided to do something a little bit different tonight.

When I first set this blog up, I thought I would talk about myself and some of my passions/hobbies. However, when I started writing things about me in my first post I became skeptical. I didn't want to say stuff that would be interpreted in any way other than what I intended. I know that is practically impossible. If you ask 10 different people for an opinion on something, you will get 10 different opinions. So, I decided to just stick to movies. That was impartial, impersonal, etc.

Well, I am going to dive into the personal a bit and see how it goes.

This year has been a strange year for me. You know how you can watch a movie or listen to a song about life? You know how someone gets cancer in a movie and there are a certain amount of responses to that news? There aren't 400 responses there are only 3 or 4. I don't know if that makes sense or not. Anyway, when something "life changing" happens in your own life it is almost surreal. You think you will have one of the responses that "you are supposed to have". Like if someone dies that you love you are supposed to be sad, right? Well, sometimes its not like that at all. Sometimes it is just surreal and nearly unexplainable. I have had some unfortunate things happen to me this year. And it is as if I am watching someone else's life unravel and not my own. It is as if I am a character in a fictional movie that I just watch from a distance. The surreal part (as if not being merely a "character" in your own life isn't surreal) is that you know it is you and yet you have this distinct feeling that you are watching someone else. I think the fact that you feel 45 different emotions (sometimes 2 conflicting feelings at the same time) about an event makes it surreal as well. It is all very strange. I don't want to get into specifics, which would probably help explain this concept better, but suffice it to say not everything is as it seems as life unfolds.

I guess that is wisdom though. I used to hate when people said that I would "understand" something when I was older. But, you don't get wisdom without experience. And experience comes with time. I have learned a lot from the events of this year. I believe I am wiser than I was before the events.

I just want to tell everyone out there reading this to just take a breath and enjoy what you do. Always try and gain perspective. Always love those you are supposed to love. Always work hard like you are supposed to. Always treat your health with respect. Enjoy it as you do it, but try and keep things in perspective. Maybe that way you won't have any regrets. I can't promise everything will work out if you do all the "right things" (because sometimes they won't), but you might get through the tough times with no regrets.

I want to take the time and thank my family for all of their love and support. They are always there for me. It makes me mad that I thought they were lame and intrusive when I was a teenager.

I also want to send a shout out to Brandon. He has been an awesome friend. I can't wait to get down to his new place and hang out with him and his wife. Thanks for listening Brandon and for thinking I am cool and worth hanging out with. I am not that cool, but I try...haha. See you soon, it will be a blast!

Well, that is enough about me and my feelings *said in a lame drawn out voice* for one night. Now, I am fine. I don't want a flood of emails or comments all concerned about me. I am fine, I repeat, I am fine. I just wanted to thank some people and tell everyone that life is so surreal sometimes.

Oh, one last thing. I went to some blogs last night. Blogs are of the devil (I know I am writing on one now)! Talk about surreal. Can you believe that everyone has turned out the way they have? I wouldn't of been able to call it! Haha. Also, you start looking at one blog and that blog takes you to another blog and then another and another and so on. Then it's 4:00 AM and you want to kill yourself for staying up so late looking at billions of blogs. So, blogs are the work of the devil. If it is 4:00 AM and you are reading this, turn your computer off and go to bed!

Good night everyone! Say thank you and I love you to someone by tomorrow night!